May 25, 2004
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Just a Swingin'
Today has been good. Really, really good.
Why? Yeah..I have no real idea.
Okay, that's not true.
It was sunny!
What did I say?
You heard me.
IT WAS SUNNY!!!!
And I have to tell you...that puts me in a good mood right off the bat. THEN I had my counseling appointment this morning...followed by a funny voice mail on my cell phone...followed by good conversation, laughter, and giggling...followed by a nice little fight with Mike..( which is okay, honestly, because I'd rather fight then have the tension..) Followed by more conversation..followed by the park.
The park!!
A sunny, beautiful day. A park by a lake. Pine trees, little white flowers...and baby ducks..soooo fun.
I tried to teach Emily how to swing on her own..because honestly..I'm so sick of pushing her. All I hear is "HIGHER!! HIIIIGGHHHER!!" In a whiney voice. Raar.
ehem.
Anyway, so I was trying to show her how to swing. And before I really knew what I was doing..I was swinging higher, and higher..and laughing...
Just throwing my head back and laughing...from my soul. I had forgotten how much fun..how free that makes you feel. I couldn't stop smiling..I know I was flushed...and I was happy. I'll always have that memory. It feels like the first time I've ever swung before. ( errr. you know what I mean...eww..)
By the time we got home..all systems were a go...kids down for naps..living room clean, dishes done..blah, blah. I sat out on the deck for an hour..just soaking up the sun... Ahhhh...it feels so good.
Mike and I got into it again this evening..but really, that can't even touch me today. For some reason, today....I just know everything's going to be alright. I'm seeing so much beauty again...so much good...Whatever happens..everything is going to be alright. I'm Zen...yo.
And I feel my darkness...my blackness...my ugliness...just being swallowed up by the light. And there is a lot of light.
Hope you all have a wonderful Tuesday..and I will blog about my counseling soon..I just need to sort through it all first.
All my love...
Comments (8)
hey thats great, I too spent time in the sun, took the puppies for a nice long stroll around the neighborhood. I forgot how nice just taking a walk is
i am totally smiling with you!
::does the happy dance:: Wheee! So glad you were able to break free and enjoy! It's hard to in the midst of things, but when you do...Oh it is nice. Now, chickipoo send sun this way!!! I'm tired of rain ::pout:: I mean I like everything green and all, but SHEESH its been this way for 2 weeks.
Take care. *hugs*
me
it is nice to be able to commune in a way on days
like this...and it just sounds nice you know...
glad you had this day for a new memorie.
thomas
Yer Zen, yo!
woo hoO!
Happy Sunny Days to you....
*Smiling with you* Sunny days are always nice! Good for the soul. Happy to hear you had a peaceful day! Take care! Hugs!
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