August 4, 2004
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Extra! Extra! Read all about
Me!!
( sometimes I really crack myself up...lol)
Things I've learned, or RE learned since my last blog...( and random things about...things....since I don't really feel like doing a huge blog right now)
~ Work makes you tired....it's a good kind of tired, but tired just the same.
~ The more you try and fix things...the more you tend to break them.
~ This includes, but is not exclusively...TEETH.
~ Yes. Yesterday. 2 fillings, and a Root Canal. FUN.
~ Almost three hours in a dentist chair with your mouth open makes your butt fall asleep.
~ And your legs, and your back, and your..feet. FUN.
~ But Percoset almost makes up for it. Almost.
~ Brush and floss EVERY DAMN DAY.
~ I've always brushed every day, just for the record..lol
~ This is the age four year old girls learn to..."tickle" themselves...this is uncomfortable for me...
~ BUT more uncomfortable for Mike...which I find really funny.
~ Mikes voice gets much higher when he talks about this
~ Which is even funnier
~ I love shoes. I haven't worn high heals in years...and I LOVE them.
~ Plus, it's something more to shop for...muahahahahaha...
~ Learning to let go of people you love is harder than I ever thought
~ Learning how to keep people you love is even harder
~ I love Sushi...still...
That hasn't changed since my last blog...lol
~ I'm staying in our "separation" apartment starting Thursday.
~ This makes my stomach hurt.
~ Bad
~ I think Mike and I have a chance..a real chance to work things out.
~ I hope...
~ But I got a really cool shower curtain from Ikea for the new apartment.
~ Its very cool.
~ I LOVE my job. I mean it. I LOVE it...more than I ever could have hoped.
~ I went to work today..high on Percoset. That was FUN.
~ AND I rented an apartment!! Woo HOO!
~ I think I'm done now...lol.
There is a lot I'm going through right now, a lot of changes, and re-evaluations. It's a hard thing for me to go through, AND work for the first time in 5 years, AND try and continue to find who I used to be...AND...AND...AND... Re-evaluating has always been hard for me. I'm one who accepts what life is, where it has taken me..what paths, etc...but in doing that, I tend to get tunnel vision. And so I'm widening my tunnel. And re-evaluating where I need to be, and how I plan on getting there. The job, more than anything, has helped me. I feel so much more self worth now. I've always had self worth, but this isn't wrapped around my family, or my friends. This is wrapped around me...and the accomplishments I'VE made, and the things I'm learning...and learning well. I feel so blessed to have found a job like this...on my first try, my first resume, my first interview. Talk about the Universe helping me out. It's amazing.
Universe? Check this out...www.tut.com... This is the first thing I read in the morning. It really helps me to focus throughout the day.
Oh, and I've started writting poetry. And I have to tell you...it's helped my soul so much. I'm not very good, but it serves it's purpose...to express my heart, and soul..and dreams...and that's really what it's all about, right? I've been trying to write a poem a day, and I've started posting them at my 'poetry site'...ThePrincessButtercup. Go on by if you'd like...
I'm so sorry I haven't been keeping up with everyone. And I haven't. I'm having a really hard time learning how to juggle everything. I used to spend 'nap time' on the computer..and now that I'm working...my time is so much mroe limited. But I don't want to lose you guys! So please bear with me, while I figure out my new time management. And honestly..I've never really been good at time management...so this should be interesting..lol
Sometimes, I see something, and this whole blog comes to my mind. All that I will write about...all that I think, and feel. I sit down at the computer, and come up with a great blog. And there are times like now, where my days are full of running..and when I sit down to blog...I go..." DUH". Yeah. So hopefully this famine will last only a short while. I miss writing. I miss the release I get from doing so.
Know how much I love you all...and thank you for being here.
All my love...
Jen
Comments (24)
Best wishes for your journey!
Sorry to hear about the dentist visit. *ouch* I wish you the best of luck, Jen, in everything that you do.
Hate dentists....'specially with crowns and stuff. ugh.
So glad to hear all is well with you - even when it hurts. Growing hurts sometimes and well there's the good and the bad.
Take care and I'll be here.
Love,
me
I am so glad that you got a job and are rediscovering your self, and possibly your marriage in the process.
Word.
You're doing great, bet your self esteem is boosting cuz of that job...bet it feels good to earn a paycheck and have another life
keep on keepin on
oh hun ow on the pain!!
As for the growing bravo!, thats wonderful. Learning things about oneself good or bad is always good. (:
I see so much growth in your poems an thank you again for my poem *hugs it tightly an you* i cherish an adore both (:.
For love an Life, Be happy Be you Be blessed
Love you
Your Trinny
xxxxx
btw hun the pic you were looking for is now on the second page in my xanga
ouch=dentist!! I'm so happy for u with the job and apartment
Love the poems too!
I'm so glad to hear that the job is going well. Small personal successess really have a way of creating positive energy.
It truly made me smile to read that you feel as though you may be able to work on things with Mike. Good luck my dear!
Keep on onin'
Love and Light
There's a lot of important stuff here for a short blog. Keep going, Girl, keep going.
I’m really glad you found such a great job and that it is helping you to make the necessary changes in life to go on and possibly even work things out. Poetry writing is an incredible thing. The words good and bad are subjective in my opinion. If it’s heartfelt I’d say its good no matter grammar or anything else. I’m glad you are delving into it more. Keep on keeping on hon and you’ll be just fine. Take care of yourself.Nikky
Ummmm... I don't know how to tell you this but I've been working for quite some time. There is no such thing as time management. Hahahahahah!
Wait! You got Percoset?! Can you share? After my root canal my dentist just said, "oh, nothing exotic, over the counter stuff" I was really disapointed. I mean, I was hoping for Percoset or Vicodan! A little more codiene at least.
http://www.tut.com - how awesome!! Thanks for sharing. And I subbed to your poetry site. Can't wait to read! You sound happy - I'm so happy for you!
*hugs*
whatever happens, we'll be here waiting for ya!
I write and write and everything looks like crap so I keep it private. I did one last night but only cos I couldn't sleep.
Difficult with kids and their sexuality. I used to tell mine that like picking your nose it was fine to do it, everyone did but in private! I used to find all sorts of examples (I tried to stay away from toilet and negative connotations) to tell him that he could do it in private. It worked.
Then at 6 he got 'seduced' by a very slightly younger girl (his best friend from babyhood) into the ways of adults. It was funny at the time. We had to get the babysitter to keep a closer eye on them though
xoxoxoxoxoxoxo
wow... dentists bother me.. yikes.
she is "tickling herself?" does that mean what I think it does?
im keeping my fingers crossed for you and mike.
thanks for the link, had to get my thoughts from the Universe.
owies about the dentist. but yay for percoset .
I can relate to your lack of time. Also, things are happening all at once for me, too. Trying to juggle grad school with moving with the stages of grieving with finding myself with daily chores... it becomes overwhelming at times. But you have a good list of things you've learned and you have a lot to be proud of. You are one hot independent chic!
Blessings and smiles!
Keira
(: Love you
ATLEAST THEY GAVE U STRONG MEDS WHEN THEY PULLD MY TOOTH ALL I GOT WAS TYNONOL 3 LMAO
CONGRATS ON THE JOB & APARTMENT!!!HUGE HUGS!!!
DANG MESSED UP MY LAST MSG...LOL
Merry meet, Good luck with it all sweety I am sure it will all work out for the best. Especially good luck with the poetry. Hope to hear from you soon all the white light in the world to you and *hugs* n love back at you!
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