May 26, 2004

  • Focus



     


    Time, once again...to Focus.  To focus on me..on my children, on my future.  There are many things I need to do...many things I haven't done..because I've been hiding behind a phone.


    SO...here we go...


    --Job
    --Apartment
    --Councling
    --Gym
    --Family
    --ME


    I went to the gym today..and it made all the difference.  I haven't been going much..and I feel it.  I don't necessarily feel it in my body..as much as I do with my emotions..my stability.  There is something empowering about spending 30 minutes sweating your butt off.  Then lifting weights..and clearing your mind.  It's nice.  It's me time.
    Then I went to the store.  Did serious grocery shopping.  * Note:  you should not go to the grocery store to buy bread crumbs when you just finished working out..and you're hungry.  Bad, bad combo...SO 100.00 dollars later..ehem...*


    So here I sit...munching on bannana chips..( my new obsession..) and deciding how I really want this blog to go.  See..there are so many things in my head now..so many emotions..and it's weird..because today, most are good.  Yesterday, most were not.  BUT I purged last night.  I layed it all out there...and I think, in doing so..I let it all go.  What a releif that is.  I'm still sad, because I feel I've lost some things I wanted...but I feel empowered..because I did everything in my power to be honest and forthright.  It was nice.


    Last night..a new friend said something to me...something that has stuck...he said...


    "You wrapped yourself in an emotion you needed to feel..."


    Okay.  Noted. 


    Thanks.


    Now it's time to wrap myself in me.  And that's what I'm doing...


    So...yeah...I'm not in a bloggie kind of mood right now, I guess...so I'll save the rest for later..


    xoxo

    me



     

Comments (10)

  • wise words he said.

    {{{hugs}}}

  • oh... and on my desk... a bowl of banana chips... i made'em.. lol what the hell was i thinking!! so much quicker to buy'em

  • Jen........I relate to every word you say in your blogs.  I am so proud of you for sharing all of this with us.  It aint easy and I know it!  ((((((((Jen)))))))) You are awesome sweetie! Kira

  • hi.  found you through a blog ring.  we have a lot in common as far as family/gym/and shopping.  :)   i love to sweat my butt off too, and it does feel so great once i'm done, so why is it so hard to keep working out?  i am famous for shopping on an empty stomach.  banana chips in trail mix is one of my fave's.

    lisa

  • jen
    thanks for the message
    and the kindness

    wise words indeed

    just dont forget to really take deep breaths
    every now and then

    t

  • Hey friend,

    I really like how you can find just the right photo for your blogs.  It shows a great part of your personality.  You can coordinate ANYTHING!!!

    Infinity and Beyond...

  • Yes, wrap yourself in you.  Be aware of yourself in the present moment.  Think of what would make you happy, and know that when you make yourself happy, the others around you benefit!

    Take care!
    Keira

  • be good to you.

  • Personally I think this was/is a great blog. Thinking of you hon...

  • Thanks for reminding me that I really want to try to make it to Yoga, next Friday. I remember my banana chip phase. Try a facial & a long bath!!

    ~bella

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