Wellll, hello!

Ok, so the bad.  I don't write when I'm happy.  And the good.  I'm happy.

I miss writing, especially poetry...but the stuff I've written is mushy and lovey, and well...I don't love it.  So I'm not writing.

Instead, I'm gardening, we're redoing hardwood floors, I'm working at the same job which I dont love anymore (and trying to figure out what I want to be when I grow up).  James just turned 6.  Damnit.  I wish he could stay little forever.  Emily is busy, and happy and smart and adorable.  Amy is great.  We fight now..we've hit that stage.  But it's not bad, actually.  If that makes sense.  We work it out.  And she's commited to it.  And that's pretty perfect.  She still makes me really happy.  Spring in is full swing now.  We're doing BBQs with friends a lot.  We host, since we have the big back yard.  It's fun, and I love that the house is full of all the great energy of loving friends. And apparently I'm writing in small fragmented sentences tonight.  Awesome.

Hmm..what else.  Nothing, really, I guess.  Life goes by to quickly.  I'm feeling nostalgic tonight.  Missing everything and everyone.  But without regret.  Instead, with appreciation for what was, and how it molds into what I am and where I am today.  Grateful nostalgia.

The kids are at their dads this week, Amy went to bed 2 hours ago, and I'm up, not tired and cuddled with the cats.  I wish the kids were here.  I miss them when they arn't.  It's nice to have time by myself, or alone with Amy...but I miss them when they arn't with me.  I think I'm lonely tonight.

Ohhhh...side note.  I just saw that I can post this to my facebook profile!  Wow..look at xanga go.  I've had this account SOOO long, and it's gone through so much with me..I don't think it's something I need to broadcast to everyone of my friends.  But impressive none the less.

Ok.  I'm officially rambling.  Shocking, I know. 

I've been reading all your (all of you) entries tonight.  I kinda miss everyone.

Goodnight.

P.S.  Amy suprised me with tickets to Chris Pureka.  She's one of my favorites, ever.  You should check her out.