January 14, 2008

• Words. more. always.

  So..still writing!

   

  Maybe I'm a little freaked out again about the girl thing.  I really like her.  A lot.  But she scared me last night.  Because she said the L word.  And not the tv show.  And I just looked at her.  Because holy shit.  I'm not prepared for that.  Ever.  Color me bitter, color me jaded...just don't color me commited.  yikes.

  (p.s.  yes, Autmn, I know I sound like a jerk right there, but you know what I mean..)

   

  So..writing.  new one.  I kind of like it.  But I don't wanna hear any rainbow jokes..got it? 

   

  Smeared Rainbow

  Midnight eats dawn in the early hours of lonely,
  Swallowed dreams, dust clung to ruby throat.
  Shifts slightly- With ease, into nightmares, sharp and tender.
  
  Air is a whispered memory, choked down cold
  Between fast paced years, and faster draws.
  Slaughtering the patched-worked clock
  Checked in quarters, to force feed
  Tinkling shards of idealic human will.
  
  I suck on the seconds, writhe in the eclipsed moments,
  While barren limbs overlap minutes and lines.
  Yet, there are times
  When breath breaks the barriers
  Of silent kaleidoscope screams
  Ridden in unaccounted, slick color.
  
  And I suffocate on rainbows.
  Wallowing, unintentionally
  As they python around my swollen pulse.
  Blurred smear of paint squeezed down
  Half hazard/full scale wounds
  Where reach embraces orphaned need
  With a shuddered, tasteless sigh
  Before the flinch and sprint (vs. fight and flight)-
  Leaving only a stained glass shadow
  Where my open arms used to be.

   

   

  
   

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