November 14, 2007

  • I think i'm a little messed up.

     

    So..i'm excited about this date tonight.  I don't see it going anywhere with her, because i don't have that feeling in my gut that says it will.  And I get those when it goes somewhere, generally.  But I really like her.  We've been talking a lot, had lunch the other day, and dinner tonight.  We're pretty flirty flirty...it's cool.

    And then I take a nap this morning on the couch..(I'm lazy, I can't help it!  I was tired!)

    And I dream that Rach is sleeping on the couch while I get my body painted (Um..don't ask, i have no idea..)..and I come out, and she's touching my face, and kissing me.

    and it just left me feeling really weird when i woke up.  Am I doing the right thing, going on this date?  Am I causing more trouble in my head than I should?  It's seriously messed up..and left me just...whacked in the brain.

    i miss her.  this girl is cute, and amazing, and smart, and just..really cool.

    and i miss the woman i love.  blah blah..again.

    and she reads this, i think.  But i don't really care anymore.  whatever.  let her know. 

     

     

Comments (6)

  • You should be asking yourself if it's what you want, if it feels right to you.

    My friend is constantly telling me this, and I think it fits here. It is hard, letting go of her. You'll figure things out.

    Again I say, good luck.

  • eek.  new relationships are hard.  Especially since you're getting over one.  It's natural to not have those feelings when it's been so soon. 

    Good luck with the date.  I'm excited for you.  Be sure to let me know how it goes.

    xoxo

  • haha you're cute!  I'm glad the date went good.  And you got a kiss out of it.  :)  

  • hope it went well but going by the last comment I am guessing it did

    not sure why it did not work when i tried calling you :(

    sorry I have not been replying. This is a busy month trying to write

  • I think starting up again after a break up is hard. It's not that you're doing anything 'wrong' While it would be nice to be over and done with something, even though we've made the mental decision, the emotions have their own schedule.

  • Hope things go well. Body painting is pretty erotic. Sounds like it was kind of a fun dream even though it felt weird.
    *sparkle

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