October 30, 2007
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My journal, I've decided has become my friend. My friends don't need to hear about how sad I am..and you, as a reader, can just hit that little box up in the corner, if you want..without having to actually come up with an excute to hang up the phone. And I'm not calling her, or texting her.
More good news. I'm 100 bucks overdrawn in my checking account, because they decided to take out my car insurance, instead of waiting. I guess I hadn't realized i'd done that. More good news-they are turning off my power tomorrow. because I haven't paid. more good news-I don't have the gas to go get Emily from school...and make it back. I was going to go to the gas station on the way to get her. So I get to walk and get her. And figure out how to get out of this mess. Maybe paying for the HRC dinner wasn't such a hot idea. But I owed her money, So there you go.
Now, however, I'm completely fucked. It's good times. And to make it worse, my friend said 'it's okay, we'll take care of it, and i'll just stay at your house a couple of nights, so I won't have to worry about commuting to work and you can just use that gas". Which is incredibly sweet, except she WANTS to stay the night, and maybe like, every night. And it's sooo uncomfortable. Like Emily said: No one but Rachel will ever live here again. It was sweet, and probably not true, but I couldn't find it in me to argue with her (because i want to beleive it, too...that she'll be back). I just want friends, not a replacement, not a date. I just want her.
Annnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnd on I go.
Edit: I have incredible friends. My friend stopped by to check on me on her lunch break. And she walked in to me writing this post. And insisted I use her gas card to get gas, and whatever else I needed to get me through. And I wrote her a check for Friday when I get paid. So now, I only have to worry about power. Seriously...it's someone who I haven't been close to lately, maybe because i've been focusing so much of my life and my attention on trying to be perfect for a woman who doesn't love me anymore. Friends are awesome. And forgiving. And really really....good.
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yay for good friends. They are what get me through lately.
I'm right in the same boat with you on the bank account. Except mine is overdrawn $150. Money issues suck.
anyway, hello.
...check out what resources are available to you in your area.. often times low income folks are eligible for help with their gas and light.. there is also help for food stamps, and aid for the kids.. see what's available for you and your kids...don't let your pride get in the way...call around.. make life easier for yourself while you are going through this transitional phase of your life.. until you get back on your feet....
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