August 17, 2007
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My life...
(me, Rachel and James on our way back from Idaho in July)
Has been a busy one lately..and there are so many things I thought about over the last couple of weeks, that I'd love to blog about. So..um...I'll try.
Here goes.
* I love it, when she says in her sleepy voice "I love you too, sweetheart". I...can't explain it, other than it's total mushy feeling, and it makes me smile a lot.
* I'm now managing my property. Everyone keeps asking how i'm doing. And i'm doing fine. I donm't feel overwhelmed, or afraid..i'm just doing it. It's not that big of a deal, honestly..which makes me wonder if i'm missing something somewhere.
* We went to a wedding last Saterday. We sat in the back of the church, and Rachel tried not to laugh, while I just got pissed. Maybe it's because it came on the tail of a talk I had with a friend over sushi Friday night...where we discussed how shitty it is that gay marriage is illegal. And how I have a unique prospective. The thing is...I know what it's like to get married to someone I loved. I know what it's like to hold their hand in front of family and friends, and vow my life to them. And have it recognized by State and Country. I know what it's like to have to protection and rights that marriage affords. What I can't get my mind around, is that I can't do that now. If I proposed to Rachel, or she to me...we could get married if we went to Canada..or to MA. But other than that..it would be a marriage based only on commitment, etc. It would not be legally recognized. Now, some would say this is good..we can have a Civil Union now...we can still be commited..isn't that enough? But it's not. It's not nearly enough to be segregated, to be given different and less rights then I was before. The injustice of it all just caught up with me, as I watched my friend getting married...and it all just felt so crappy...I felt so slighted. I'm who i am. I love who i love. And because i love someone of the same sex, I am not given the same rights. Sure...I don't have to ride on the back of the bus..but do you see the correlation here? Obahma says LBGT rights (Specifically gay marriage) is not a civil rights issue...but living it every day..and having lived a straight life for 8 years...I can tell you it IS a civil rights issue. I'm not given the rights of a straight person, because I'm different. And different = fear=ignorance=discrimination. Maybe i'm feeling bitter..maybe i'm just ready to fight about it. I don't know. Maybe i just feel the complete injustice of it, because i HAVE been on both sides. But no matter what, it's lame. Completely.
*We had our 6 month anniversary. And Rachel bought me a totally rad watch. And I sent her flowers. because i'm sweet. ish. And mushier than anyone else.
* I just got through watching the 3rd season of The L Word. And I cried, and cried, and cried. Good times. I can't wait to watch the 4th season...I hope it's not quiet as sad, though.
*We're going to go see Minnie Driver at The Croc on Saterday night. I'm excited, because her voice is amazing, and I'm a little (a lot) in love with her. You should look her up. Who knew. Not me until recently, and now I heart her. Go to myspace at www.myspace.com/jenisarockstar . If you friend me, you can listen to her song.
* I heart vicodine. In that way that it takes the pain away from one of my teeth that like-spitinhalf. Ouch. Luckily, you can't tell..so i don't look all that trashy..but still. It's going to cost a lottttta money to fix that one, and a few others that have root canal issues. Do i look excited? yeah...
Other than that ...it's been a tame couple of weeks. I'm cuddled here with Rach, and she's ready to go to bed, so I'm going to go snuggle with her, and hope for the best.
'til next time....
xoxo
Jen
Comments (3)
I am so glad you have a special someone in your life. What a sweet photo and you all look so happy together!
..it doesn't get much sweeter in life, than knowing you love and are loved in return... i agree with you muchly on gay marraige and the denial of one's civil rights... unfortunaely ignorance is bliss, and most of the world tends to live in a state of perpentual bliss...that way no one has to be held accountable for such stupidity....
It is good to see you smiling here chica....good indeed....
I've missed that smile....
As for the Gay Marriage issue.....if it gets to you that bad....fight!!!! Become involved with Pride and find out how to protest, how to demand action.....only with your voice added to the struggle will it ever end....every gay person needs to raise their voice and demand what they want...
Personally....I don't want them to leagalize "Gay Marriage" I used to.....But "Marriage" is a heterosexual tradition and they can keep their tradition....I want civil unions legalized so that I can be afforded the same "Benefits" as the heterosexual community.....make sense?
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